Thursday, June 11, 2015

How to Heal


We all have scars and wounds
Hurts we hide deep inside our hearts
Things we don't tell other people
Because it's too real to us
So how can we heal those hurts?
The ones we don't ever show?

Step one, admit
Admit that you're hurting
Don't try and pretend it's not there
Don't talk yourself down
Don't say you're crazy or foolish
If it hurts, it's real
It doesn't matter why
So face your pain
Admit it's there

Step two, breathe
Take a deep breath
Breathe out the confusion and hurt
Clear your soul and heart
Breathe in new air
Fresh air, new life
Just close your eyes
And breathe

Step three, pray
You don't have to say it out loud
You don't need to use words
You can draw
You can paint
You can write
You can sing
You can play a song
You can dance
Find your voice
And let out your hurt

Step four, cry
Let your emotions free
Don't stuff them down
Watch a sad movie
Listen to a sad song
Don't choke back the tears
Just let them out
Not all tears are bad

Step five, walk
It may sound dumb
But maybe try it
Go by yourself to somewhere quiet
A dirt road near your house
A hidden corner of a park
A quiet path at the reserve
Somewhere with just you
And walk
Savor the beauty around you
Let the breeze soothe you
Use nature's sweet salve

Step six, treat
Give yourself a gift
A favorite dessert
A nice movie
A bubble bath
A dress
Something just for you
A spoil yourself gift
And don't feel guilt
Because you've earned it
How did you earn it?
You got up

Step seven, compliment
Think about you
What makes you special?
Remember all those compliments
Nice words friends have said
Scroll through emails and old birthday cards
Make a list of things you like about yourself
Remind yourself that you are beautiful
You are special

Step eight, love
Say "I love you."
To yourself
To the girl in the mirror
To the reflection in the side of your car
Write notes on the wall
Put notes in the car
Make a playlist of love songs
Just for you

Step nine, see
Notice the little gifts in your day
Your favorite song on the radio
A smile from a stranger
A kind word from a friend
A bird singing outside your window
A flower on the side of the road
All little things
But all seeming to say, "I love you."

Step ten, share
Send a compliment to colleague
Put a note on someone's locker
Say thank you to a person who has helped you
Post something nice on someone's Facebook wall
Say "I love you" to a friend
Tell the girls their beautiful
Because you know how it feels
And you're learning how to heal

Step eleven, repeat

Monday, June 1, 2015

No One Knows


It's a secret
No one knows
Things buried deep within
Hiding behind the curtain
Appearing only in the dark

No one knows
That behind her brilliant smile
Hides a thousand tears
And a deep well of sadness

No one knows
That behind her sweet words
Is a girl desperate for love
Longing to be understood

No one knows
That under her good girl persona
Lies a burning desire to break the rules
A taste for adventure

No one knows
That when she stands in a throng of friends
She feels utterly alone
Invisible, unnoticed, overlooked

No one knows
That in the privacy of her room
She makes love to the pillow
Dreaming of romance

No one sees
The way she bites back her tears
Feeling invisible and alone
Crazy and confused


No one knows 
How she wakes
With an ache in her chest
And a sadness in her heart

No one sees
The pinch marks on her arm
Where she tried to escape the ache
Wanting to feel again


No one knows 
How her mind races
Swirling with so many thoughts
So many emotions

No one knows 
How she strokes her cheek
Longing to be touched
To be loved


No one knows
That when she hides in the corner
She wants to be noticed
To be seen

No one knows
Who she really is

No one sees
The words in her journal
Beautiful, broken words
From a beautiful, broken heart

No one sees
The tears she sheds in the car
As her favorite song comes on
Showing her someone cares

No one knows
When she writes loving notes
The very blood from her heart the ink
Trying to make a difference

No one knows
How she dances in the woods
Hands up, feet twirling
Unafraid and unashamed, just for a moment

No one knows
How she cries for her friends
Their pain her own
Cutting deeply, leaving scars

No one knows
How her brightest smiles
Always come with a great ache
And she embraces both

No one knows 
How she treasure every smile, every hug
Every little note or word
Laying them in her heart, a love mosaic

No one knows
How she remembers
How she dreams
How she listens
How she loves

But

If she lets you see
Even for a moment
A tiny scrap of her soul

If she lets you see her dance
If she lets you read her words
If she lets you see her cry

Then know you are special
Because for her
Letting people in
Is the most valuable
Most dearly paid gift
She can ever give

Believe me
She knows